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I want to talk a bit about music. Music is a very important part of my life. Not making it obviously, I dont have a talent for that, or for much else really. But I love music and there is nothing that can lift your spirits when you are down like a song that reminds you of happier times. The flip side of that is nothing can ruin your mood quicker that hearing a song that you associate with someone who is no longer in your life or one that you remember from an unhappy time in your life.
There are songs that i hear that remind me of people I love or hate and instantly wheni hear that song that person is on my mind. There are songs i hear that remind me of people from here even. When i hear troublemaker by weezer i instantly think of Lavi, or if i hear Yellow by Cold Play i think of Jurgen. That kind of thing.
What brought all this up was i heard the song Nothingman by Pearl Jam and it reminds me of a very bad night, possibly the worst night of my life.
It was April 25, 1995. I was at a party for the hockey team that all my friends played on. I had enough to drink, more than enough and had planned at sleeping at Tims house instead of driving home. But i was playing in a golf tournament the next day and was afraid i wouldnt get up in time if i wasnt at home. So i decided to drive home. Big mistake, huge in fact. I fell asleep at the wheel and had a wreck. Somehow i got off the freeway and hit a curb. I woke up when the car became airborne. I saw the stars in the windsheild and was in shock. Then i saw the ground come up and instinct i guess told me to brace myself for impact, if i had had a few seconds to think about it or been sober i would have curled up, but i put my feet against the firewall, right at the point of impact. The car crashed into the ground nose first. I lost consciousness. When i came to, i had no idea how badly i was hurt. I tried to start the car but couldnt push the clutch in because my left foot was crushed. I pushed the horn until the battery went dead. The drivers side window exploded on impact, lucky for me or i might have bled to death. i tried to crawl out the window but couldnt get enough leverage to get out. It was dark outside and i couldnt see anything around me, in the rearview mirror i could see the lights of a store but it was very far away. no other lights were visible anywhere, i had no idea where i was and this was before cell phones were so common. I was able to make my way to the back seat and lie down but the car was at such an angle that i kept rolling out of the seat into the floor. I wasnt in as much pain as i would be later i guess because of all the liquor i had consumed. I was finally able to wedge myself behind the drivers seat with my legs kicked over the back of the seat and passed out. No one came. The next morning I was awakened by a man knocking on my window. He asked me if i was okay and when i turned around i must've looked horrible because he took one look at me and ran for a phone, as i watched him run away i lost all self control, i hadnt panicked until then. As he is running to the parking lot a bunch of army men got out of a truck. I had landed in a field where the texas national guard does theor weekend manuevers. One of them a man named dan from austin texas was able to get a door open and got in the back seat with me and stayed until the ambulance got there.
The ambulance arrived and the paramedic told me the car had been airborne for 125 feet.
I crushed my left foot, broke my right ankle, broke me sternum in three places, bruised my heart, had three broken ribs, a concussion and various cuts and bruises. I was in the hospital for two weeks, had two surgeries. But the thing that i keep remembering is that the last thing i remember hearing was Pearl Jam and the song nothing man.
I want to talk a bit about music. Music is a very important part of my life. Not making it obviously, I dont have a talent for that, or for much else really. But I love music and there is nothing that can lift your spirits when you are down like a song that reminds you of happier times. The flip side of that is nothing can ruin your mood quicker that hearing a song that you associate with someone who is no longer in your life or one that you remember from an unhappy time in your life.
There are songs that i hear that remind me of people I love or hate and instantly wheni hear that song that person is on my mind. There are songs i hear that remind me of people from here even. When i hear troublemaker by weezer i instantly think of Lavi, or if i hear Yellow by Cold Play i think of Jurgen. That kind of thing.
What brought all this up was i heard the song Nothingman by Pearl Jam and it reminds me of a very bad night, possibly the worst night of my life.
It was April 25, 1995. I was at a party for the hockey team that all my friends played on. I had enough to drink, more than enough and had planned at sleeping at Tims house instead of driving home. But i was playing in a golf tournament the next day and was afraid i wouldnt get up in time if i wasnt at home. So i decided to drive home. Big mistake, huge in fact. I fell asleep at the wheel and had a wreck. Somehow i got off the freeway and hit a curb. I woke up when the car became airborne. I saw the stars in the windsheild and was in shock. Then i saw the ground come up and instinct i guess told me to brace myself for impact, if i had had a few seconds to think about it or been sober i would have curled up, but i put my feet against the firewall, right at the point of impact. The car crashed into the ground nose first. I lost consciousness. When i came to, i had no idea how badly i was hurt. I tried to start the car but couldnt push the clutch in because my left foot was crushed. I pushed the horn until the battery went dead. The drivers side window exploded on impact, lucky for me or i might have bled to death. i tried to crawl out the window but couldnt get enough leverage to get out. It was dark outside and i couldnt see anything around me, in the rearview mirror i could see the lights of a store but it was very far away. no other lights were visible anywhere, i had no idea where i was and this was before cell phones were so common. I was able to make my way to the back seat and lie down but the car was at such an angle that i kept rolling out of the seat into the floor. I wasnt in as much pain as i would be later i guess because of all the liquor i had consumed. I was finally able to wedge myself behind the drivers seat with my legs kicked over the back of the seat and passed out. No one came. The next morning I was awakened by a man knocking on my window. He asked me if i was okay and when i turned around i must've looked horrible because he took one look at me and ran for a phone, as i watched him run away i lost all self control, i hadnt panicked until then. As he is running to the parking lot a bunch of army men got out of a truck. I had landed in a field where the texas national guard does theor weekend manuevers. One of them a man named dan from austin texas was able to get a door open and got in the back seat with me and stayed until the ambulance got there.
The ambulance arrived and the paramedic told me the car had been airborne for 125 feet.
I crushed my left foot, broke my right ankle, broke me sternum in three places, bruised my heart, had three broken ribs, a concussion and various cuts and bruises. I was in the hospital for two weeks, had two surgeries. But the thing that i keep remembering is that the last thing i remember hearing was Pearl Jam and the song nothing man.
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 |  ohh.. sorry to hear that!! hope u dont have any effects of that accident... |
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